I just finished a paper before ten o’ clock at night! I can’t believe this just happened! I don’t think I’ve ever done that before!
But now I have to read about an hours worth of Demian and study for the AP Psych Test tomorrow OH GOD. Yeah. But at least I’m done with the big thing! Yay!
An update, I’ve been super busy with the musical for the past three months. Next week is show week, so it’s going to be hell, but after that it’s the parties and WOO it’s over and I’ll have freedom after three o’ clock everyday! And I won’t want to kill the techies who sit around and talk the whole time, in the way when I have to run offstage to the hall, run to backstage, run across backstage jumping over props and sidestepping the structural things of the set, and run back onstage from the opposite side.
Oh my goodness, so tired of typing words. MEHHH. I feel kind of good right now and bad at the same time. Oh well.
All these girls are walking down the halls with half their hair shaved off and it’s just weird. One person does it, and the rest follow along. Yeah, it looked pretty freaking cool on the first chick, but when you see all these girls who look like they’re doing it just for the sake of doing it … is just kind of sad.
I want my own house and a fuzzy puppy and a soft kitty and plants and windows and creaky floors and a big bed with white fluffy blankets and lace curtains and glass containers on the countertops to hold my tea bags.
My boyfriend came over and brought me a card and a red rose in celebration of our six months/Valentines day. Then I got ready and we drove to Cedar Rapids for a Vietnamese restaurant and Asian market. It was super fun going on a little road trip just the two of us! So we got to the restaurant and I ordered a passion fruit slush and some Pho Ga. IT WAS SOOO GOOOOOD. I ate my whole bowl for the first time ever. Then we went over to the market and basically bought out their Ramune and Hello Panda, and the guy practically shoved free candy in our pockets because it was the second day of the Chinese New Year. (Delicious candy, by the way.) We went home and chilled at his house for a little bit, then went to my grandpa’s and played videogames (Sims 3 Sims 3 Sims 3!) Went out to Perkins with my family and came back and watched Big Fish (EWAN MCGREGOR MMMMMM.)
It was an AWESOME day. And I’m sure I gained five pounds from it, but that’s okay.
I’ll admit, I was one of those people for the longest time that wanted to be bone-sticking-out skinny, but now that I look back on it, it’s kind of just, not worth it. Girls are binging on nothing more than an apple a day, or are starving themselves just completely. I see so many things on here…
I usually see it as, “I’m only young once, this is when calories don’t matter as much. I freaking love food so I might as well eat a shit ton now and then worry about weight when I’m in my thirties.”
I was following this chick who posted the most beautiful pictures, I basically reblogged everything she posted. But she was unhappy with her life, and she said that many a times with her posts. But I would write little anonymous notes every once in a while to her, telling her how much I loved her blog and everything.
She always talked of suicide, and then would delete the posts a little while later, but she was only like fifteen so I didn’t think much of it (because many fifteen year olds whine about life but are too scared to do anything.)
But then she stopped posting and somehow I don’t think I’m following her anymore and …